Stop the doubt. JUST BELIEVE!

So yesterday, doubt struck. I've purchased a few books and a small hand seeder, and I began to feel like it was a waste of money, because let's face it... we'll never be able to buy a farm and afford to live off of the farm and to homeschool our children. I shared my feeling with my husband who quickly gave me an attitude adjustment. HAVE FAITH! IT WILL TAKE SOME TIME, BUT IT WILL HAPPEN!! STOP THE DOUBT. JUST BELIEVE!!! I love his attitude adjustments. =)

After listening to him, I started listening to the latest Mark Mallet video and he also offered some words of encouragement. So I will ignore how "impossible" it seems and remember that nothing is impossible for God.

I think what set me off was septic tanks. Out of all things, it was a septic tank. I've been looking for farms for sale in different states and a lot of them have septic tanks. Me, being the city girl that I am, I didn't realize that sewer systems are mostly in urban areas and are not commonly found in rural areas. I DON'T WANT A SEPTIC TANK! They scare me. I thought about the cost of it and having to have it cleaned out and property taxes and blah, blah, blah... and that was it. The septic tank set me off. And I love my husband's reaction. "Maybe it won't be so bad." lol! I love him. So now I'm back to believing that it will happen and all things will be ok. Thank you Jesus for such a wonderful husband who trusts you.

One day to the next

Is it closer than I think? I hope and pray it is. I hope and pray that someway, somehow, God will move us to the farm in the blink of an eye. It's scary. But the more time goes by, the more I feel like this is really where we are headed. I'm excited and scared... fear of the unknown. I'm a mixture of emotions. One thing is for certain... God is going to get SO MUCH GLORY through this because there is no way we can change our entire way of living without Him. We don't have the money. We don't have the knowledge of farming. Honestly speaking, we don't have ANYTHING! But I feel a strange peace... like I KNOW... I KNOW that once we get there, God will take care of us. He always has. And I do mean always. I know He will teach us. I know He will bring the people in our lives, if any, that are supposed to help us. I've been praying for that. I know He is going to make all the pieces fit perfectly. I see it being a perfectly orchestrated, smooth transition in which all things are provided for. That's how God has worked in my life. I will wait and wait, then one day to the next, He literally pulls me out of one situation and I'm in a new and better place immediately and His Provisions are more than abundant. I can't wait!!! I hope and trust in Him. I don't know what the future holds, but I know Who holds my future. It's all in His Hands.

God's Call and Garden Pics

So after I got back into the swing of things and I caught up on all the news of the day, I decided that besides prayer, the only thing I could do is continue to be lead by God on the road to the purpose He has in store for me. I believe God has been speaking very clearly to my husband and me. God's purpose is for us to eventually move out of NY and to a farm. I believe we are to work from home and homeschool our children. He keeps telling us how He is going to give us land and bless our crops in abundance.

"All these blessings will come upon you and overtake you if you obey the LORD your God:

"Blessed shall you be in the city, and blessed shall you be in the country. "Blessed shall be the offspring of your body and the produce of your ground and the offspring of your beasts, the increase of your herd and the young of your flock. "Blessed shall be your basket and your kneading bowl. "Blessed shall you be when you come in, and blessed shall you be when you go out. "The LORD shall cause your enemies who rise up against you to be defeated before you; they will come out against you one way and will flee before you seven ways. "The LORD will command the blessing upon you in your barns and in all that you put your hand to, and He will bless you in the land which the LORD your God gives you. The LORD will establish you as a holy people to Himself, as He swore to you, if you keep the commandments of the LORD your God and walk in His ways. "So all the peoples of the earth will see that you are called by the name of the LORD, and they will be afraid of you. "The LORD will make you abound in prosperity, in the offspring of your body and in the offspring of your beast and in the produce of your ground, in the land which the LORD swore to your fathers to give you. "The LORD will open for you His good storehouse, the heavens, to give rain to your land in its season and to bless all the work of your hand; and you shall lend to many nations, but you shall not borrow. "The LORD will make you the head and not the tail, and you only will be above, and you will not be underneath, if you listen to the commandments of the LORD your God, which I charge you today, to observe them carefully, and do not turn aside from any of the words which I command you today, to the right or to the left, to go after other gods to serve them." (Duet. 28:2-14)

This is only one of the various reading God has given us and the funny thing is He gave us this reading LONG before we knew He was leading us in this direction. Since we believe this is where God is taking us, I've been doing something I enjoy beyond belief. I've been reading blogs on homesteading, on farming for farmers markets and on CSA's. It's so exciting to know that I'm spending my days preparing for the blessings. The same way you prepare the soil, plant the seed, water and weed and wait for the harvest... that is what I feel I'm doing now.

These are some pictures of our little garden, if I can even call it that. I regret not taking pics of it before we did the major clean up of grass clippings and weeding. It looks completely different.

These are the older tomato plants that have been out there for a few weeks,

with the neighbors yard behind them.

This is one of the two lettuce plants that survived and a small tomato plant our neighbors gave us.

It's gotten a lot bigger in a week.

close up of the donated tomato plant.

The big one on the right is the artichoke plant

and the two on the left are the spinach plants we direct seeded.

They weren't doing too well for a while because the sun was burning them up.

But they seem to be doing better.

How quickly the weeds come back. I just weeded last Sunday.

These are the newly planted tomato, red, yellow and orange bell pepper, cucumber, and 1 basil plant.

We also direct seeded some basil in the middle "row". We literally just threw them in the ground with no rhyme or reason. We are completely aware that we should space them and blah, blah, blah but we don't have a lot of space and there are a heck of a lot of seeds in a packet so we just threw them on the ground and hoped for the best. The only section we don't have a picture of is the one with the red beans in the ground and in two pots. We went to the supermarket, bought some dried red beans and planted them. Just an experiment.We'll see how that goes.

Back to Reality

So I had a beautiful Memorial Day weekend. I cleaned up the yard, I planted tomatoes, peppers, cucumbers, basil and beans. I had a beautiful visit with my in-laws. I baked bread, made a cheesecake and watched movies with my family. We barbequed yesterday and played volleyball. The weekend had some frustrating moments, but for the most part, it was a great weekend.

Of course, all good things come to an end. This morning I'm back at work and I learn of all that has happened over the weekend. Spain's credit score has been dropped. Troubles with Israel and the U.S. is on the side of the U.N. The U.N. is NEVER on the right side. Journalism takeover by the U.S. government. Two Moroccan men were deported from Italy because of their plot to assassinate the Holy Father. And so on and so on. Mark Mallet's blog (older blogs that he wrote before the unraveling began) confirm that his prophetic words are to be heeded. Spirit Daily's headlines offered the same news of the prophetic pulse. The Drudge report is unmentionable.

Dear sweet Jesus, Have mercy on us. Pour your grace out upon us that we may seek your face. Lead us and guide us. Take care of us as we place our trust in you.

It feels as if things will now begin to speed up. Things will continue to unravel until its all undone, and then... they will come in and take full control.

Prepare, but not just with food and water. But with prayer and fasting. With confession and Mass. With the Rosary and Scripture.

Our only source of hope is Christ. And that's how it should be.

Those who trust in Him will not be put to shame.